Describe your experience. Losing someone I love, family and myself. It happened 8 years ago and it still feels like yesterday. The feelings can come rushing back and all the emotions flows through my veins. Like a drug that I choose to consume over and over again. Because I promise myself to never forget what it feels like to lose it all at the age of 17. What are the difficulties you faced and what did you do? Family. Such a common word we use that some how we also take it for granted. Losing both parents at a rebellious age just makes things worst. Some choose to hate on the world, some choose to lose themselves in worldly things. Depression however, decided to choose me. But I decided to be happy on the outside and never wanting to admit that I was hurting deeply on the inside. Trips to the psychiatrist seems to be scheduled. Every Friday 12pm, after school. I stare at her and she asked questions. I never answered because in my mind, whatever I say my parents are never coming back anyway. I lost my financial person, my place of comfort and mainly my source of protection. So I took my first solo trip. To find myself again. How did this experience affect you? Throughout these past few years, I still allow myself to feel all of it. To feel the pain and cry. I mourn. Constantly. Good days are longer now. Bad days comes once in a while. I still feel like I have lost everything, some days wishing they were still around. Mainly to see who I have become now and tell me that they are proud. I am learning to love myself again and to appreciate what I have. Losing someone you love, really makes you a vulnerable person. Vulnerable to emotionally connect with people and feelings. Why are you sharing this story? I hope you, when you read this. Know that someone out here in the vast world is fighting the same battle as you are. Maybe even bigger. Know that you are not alone. Depression is not something you can tell everyone about. Until you have overcome it. So embrace it, try to see the world more positively and most importantly KNOW that YOU ARE LOVED. By people and things around you. What did you learn from this experience? Love and be love. You are stronger than think you are. Trust me. Now I can say, I am slowly loving myself, my life and that I promise is a huge step to be happy. Is there anything else you would like to add to your story? Remember, God is love.
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Amber Lechner
7/4/2018 01:43:24 am
Hey I just wanted to say I really loved reading this story. I lost my father as a young teenager and the loss is devastating. I could really relate to the emotion expressed in this story. It is so powerful. I also have recently in the past year been battling depression and it feels so, maybe comforting is the word, to know that I am no the only one. I too am learning what self love and acceptance are. There are many of us out here just trying to get through the next day. But I wanted to say most specifically Amber, thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for putting your story out here for others to read. I believe in you. I believe in all of us. We can make it. We can find happiness and wholeness. <3
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Amber Thane
8/4/2018 08:55:15 pm
Dear Amber,
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